log 03 - 5/06/26 - 11:27 pm

It is soooo hard to think of what to type sometimes- I don't rly like updating unless I have smthn to say, but then sometimes it's good to just type smthn out, yk? Kinda like, you gotta get into the habit of it all. I know lots of ppl do and when I was younger I kept a diary so that was easy, but I think with the whole, internet getting more internet-y thing, idk feels like sooo much more AND so much less is happening all at the same time, ykwim? Like there's probably smthn cool to talk abt but I don't even realize it cuz it's like normal to me.



I think I use kinda too much. My dad used to hate it, but idk, I didn't think it was a big deal. But then he thought everything was end of the fucking world, god, he was so fucking stupid it's CRAZY my mom stayed with him. Lowkey hope their house blows up idk. Stupid asshole took all my shit too... man that was forever ago now. Mav was sooo pissed I had to remind him abt HIS dad and how mad HE'D be if he knew Mav was picking fights with ppl he totally can't win against, but it was rly nice that Mav thought abt it. Sometimes he's an ass, but yk, he's my best friend, it's nice that he's got my back.



Mari totally can't know abt that shit tho. She'd be so pissed. And I don't wanna deal with that asshole again- what a total loser.



I am DEAD tired i'm gonna sleep

log 02 - 4/25/26 - 3:12 pm

You ever watch something and feel old? Yesterday I saw on the news that a theme park in town I used to hit up was closing down, and that really hit me. Like- damn! We're all growing up, yk? And isn't it kinda crazy that like, the whole world is growing with us? Sometimes it feels like i'm just on my own like this, and then I remember that there's tons of people out there I don't know about, doing all sorts of things, and making choices I can't have a say on, that affect my life in big and small ways. It's kinda creepy, kinda cool.



Where do all those abandoned rides go? I guess I could google it but like, idk it's kinda weird to think abt. Man whatever.

Saw an ad for a new movie coming out and it was sooo shit. Don't even remember the name it was just THAT bad. And it doesn't seem like the so-bad-it's-good kinda bad, it just seems like a BAD movie. Hoooly shit it looked ass. I showed it to Mari and we were laughing abt it for forevvver it was so shit, but then, I guess some people are into shitty movies like that. I for sure can't, but idk if it makes ppl happy I can't rly judge themm.

Nah im just fucking with you you gotta be shit outta brains to be into slop like that.

Think it was like, a horny version of Pinocchio? Like it was weird. Some guy made of wood or smthn. And then horny shit happens. Laughing abt it with Mari was fun but fucking after was better, so maybe I should look into more shitty films.



Sooo super bored these days.

I gotta pick up a new hobby. Smthn actually fun. Mav's got hunting which is like, his thing I guess, and I can't pick up a gun for shit so I can't rly join him. But idk what i'm into, yk? I guess there's prolly smthn, I just dunno what.



Ugh i need to go back on meds. Ts blows.

log 01 - 2/23/26 - 10:24 pm

Had to reset my blog. Really fucking annoying, but wtvr-



Got extra work today, which kinda sucked.

It was generally easy, so I can't like, complain, i guess- but still, cmon. Thousand bitches in this sea and none of them can take over a project? Seriously? And this shit was competitive too. I'm the only guy working the red room, so... like I need people to start getting off their ass and helping out. Yk? It's seriously so annoying. I can't be doing other people's work just bc they're busy



But aaaaanyway. I also got a new CD brought in, which was SO exciting. I've been rly decking out my CD player, and I think it's seriously coming along now, but yk,

we'll see how cool it gets at the end XD.

Mav was shooting at the range today too, and he was yapping oooon and on abt him and Isaiah goin on a date, which yk, cute n shit, good for him. But he was talking so much he kept fucking up his shots. That was sooo fucking funny, he is so lame it kinda kills me- but also good for him, yk? Like, he really needed a win and I guess Isaiah was that for him.



Also I hung out with Mari. She also thought it was bullshit I got extra work, so glad i'm not fucking crazy, cuz isn't that so shit? Like, UGH! FUCK! Idk i'm still just so fucking annoyed abt it like what GIVES? But regardless yk, she at least cheered me up, so I gotta thank her for that. She's the best. I got to eat lunch with her and it was really fun just hanging out and talking abt lame stuff- like, lame in the way where it would be lame if you talked abt it with anyone else like the weather or something, but like, she makes it cool. Idk she makes everything cool, it's one of the cool things abt her. She's always got weird shit going on in her head and it makes you wanna get to know her, ykwim? Idk I guess I got lucky. Not to be weird, but i'm glad we met. N other sappy stuff.



Anyway idk that was my day. nice